Tuesday, June 5, 2007

middle of the night ramblings...

Don't quite know why I'm up in the middle of the night tonight. Could be that Avery was kicking and waking me up. Or, it could be that Liv needed to be soothed back to sleep too....

So, here I sit at 4 in the morning, blogging...how sad! :)

The other night I had a thought....

When I was little, when I would wake up from a bad dream or if I was lonely, I would go into my parents room and cuddle up with my mom. Suddenly, I was fine. No more boogie-men, and off to sleep I went. I was comforted, I was safe, I was loved. There was no place else I could go that would make me feel safe like being next to mom and dad.

It just hit me the other day that now, I am that mommy. Avery begs every night to sleep with me. At first, it really got annoying to me. "Sleep in your own room honey" I would say. She would beg and plead, and eventually give in and go in her room. But, around 4 AM, here comes little Avery to cuddle up with mommy in bed. It has become a regular thing now a days. I probably should be the good consistent mommy and not let her sleep with me. But, then I remember what it was like when I was a little girl....

It just blows my mind that now I'm the mommy that gives Avery and Liv the comfort and security at night as my mom did to me. I am their "safe place" to land, and I am who they want to fall asleep next to. I have to admit, when all the books tell me that I am to have Avery sleep alone in her own room, my heart just welcomes her in as she cuddles up next to me. I love how she will put her pillow right snug next to mine, put her hand on my face and say "I love you mom".....ahhhh....doesn't get any better than that....

After a long day being mommy, and when all I want is to just sleep and start over tomorrow, it's amazing to me what that little hand on my face can do....

10 comments:

Tracey said...

Mine do, too. Whenever I get frustrated and just need some personal space, my husband reminds me that this too shall pass... and one day, they won't be snuggling anymore. It's so fleeting. Don't read books. They're usually written by people who don't know how short life is. Cuddle your kids.

Kimberly said...

Hey, books shmooks! j/k Landen will sleep with us every once in awhile when he wakes up, I like it, no I love it! Although for being only 18 months he is quite the bed hog. But you are right, there is nothing better than "I love you mom".....it's nice to be their place to land isn't it?

HomeSchool Mommy said...

By the time my daughter was about three years old, I put away all those books. I realized that I do actually know better...and many time my mom and grandmother knew better, too.

She feels safe with you...that's the important part, right?

Jennifer said...

What a great story. I WISH Kieran would sleep with us when he's scared. But he just says, "Mama, go out please. I go sleep." Alas...

Tracy said...

I'm totally with you. My feelings are that it's not going to ruin her for life if she sleeps with us every now and then. One day we'll wake up and they'll be teenagers and we'll be wishing for that little hand on our face, right?
Thanks for the comment on my blog too.
Tracy

Sarah said...

Amen Jennisa! Thanks for the reminder to treasure these young years when we are everything to our little ones. I love the midnight cuddles too. Emma likes to spoon up right next to my back and play with my hair, it's the greatest feeling in the world. Then when I'm about to fall out of bed, Travis takes her back to bed for me, what a guy! As the song says, "Let them be little, cause they're only that way for awhile. Let em cry, let em giggle, let them sleep in the middle, let them be little!"
Sarah

Munchkin Land said...

Isn't it a wonderful feeling?!

Sue said...

You're so right. Although I'm thrilled both my girls sleep very well in their own rooms and beds, I did enjoy the one night Kayla slept with us back in February (granted she had a stomach virus). But she won't sleep with us. I now love that she will come into our room and crawl in bed and cuddle up with me in the morning. What better way is there to wake up? It also blows my mind that I am their comfort. :)

John, Amy, Quaid & Bailey said...

Awww...I know my hubby was just saying the other night, how he misses our son coming in our bed in the middle of the night. He used to do it every night, everyone kept telling us we're going to regret it, but we decided to let him....cause they won't do it forever. Eventually he grew out of it...now I wish he wouldn't have grown out of it ;(

Alycia said...

Such a sweet post Jennisa! Just stopping by and I am so happy I did. Last night, both of my boys were in bed with me while I barely slept. You are right, it is amazing to be The Mommy...who they turn to for comfort. It's amazing! Have a great day!

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